Unveiled questions in a veiled crisis

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What is it that we’re actually feeling? Are we making ourselves live in a fantasy world as a bandaid and a relief of what is actually existent? Are life’s distractions an analgesic of all that might unveil and is yet to come?

What are your goals? Your 5-year plan? What are you living for and what are you working for? Do you have your priorities straight up? Do you know what all of this is for? 
The time passing by and the money being spent, the chit chats all-around and the energy meters being filled and unfilled.

Don’t you find it kind of relieving? The quarantine? The fact that you are humbled down into your home to your very basic needs, and admitting to the actual blessings of life; health family and a safe space to place your head at night.


Are you scared? Of going back to real life after this ends?
Are you afraid of life dragging you into its own routine net and into the places you were so strongly trying to escape?
Are you capable of getting out of this pandemic, but with a life choice of your own? Upon your own reflections during this global period?

And do you even know what is a right choice and what kind of life will give you comfort and get you closer to yourself?

How will all of this unveil eventually? And how will it impact you and your community and the world around you?

How will you become as a person? Or to what extent will you remain as the same person as you were initially?

Who gets to decide these answers? Is it you or is it out of your control?

What kind of internal and external forces are there playing their way around you and the decisions you intend to make?


Sunday night - April 19. 2020
Unusual Easter, evening thoughts

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