One word Dilemma

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My dilemma currently is in the word; Invest.

It’s quite known that, when a thought of a new project comes to mind, you'll make a proper plan in order to use your time, money, and energy wisely, you'll prepare for each set-back and possible failures that might come along the way, the losses don't matter as long as you have a plan B as a detour. You imagine all the possible outcomes and create a strategy plan in order to succeed with your actions.


We all invest without knowing. It doesn’t always involve a precisely planned agenda with an escape. We invest in love, people and ourselves without being fully aware; reaching an end-point where we’ve used up all our chemicals and we are left with nothing but a burn. 

See, when you look up the word "invest", it says; devote (one's time, effort, or energy) to a particular undertaking with the expectation of a worthwhile result.
You’re awaiting a worthwhile result that will guarantee your satisfaction and one that would be worth the while. but can you really, guarantee one?

Thing is, life, friendships, and love have no guarantees, maybe that’s the beautiful part, we invest without knowing the result, we hope for a beautiful ending without the effort of making an alternative plan. We go forward with faith in our hearts and happy endings in our minds. 

Maybe investing isn’t so bad after all .. oh well, who knows.


29th of October, 2016 - 2:42 PM on a Saturday.

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