All in good time;

Most vital organs -  There’s a saying in emergency medicine when rushing into a scene that says: time is heart, time is brain. It emphasizes the importance and linkage of time and its direct effect on organs, the longer you wait and let these organs rot without healing, the more damage is created and the possibility for fixation and maintenance of vitals is less and is nearly fatal. Learn to apply this to your relationships, and understand the effect of your invested time on your heart, brain, your body and others’ as well, and whether healthy oxygen is circulating or you’re letting bad blood flow, then take a brave step to be in control. Airplane thought-flow 9th of November, 3:29 am Unaddressed wishes - May you get closure for all the scars you’ve accidentally painted on others while trying to outline your own road. May you draw your home and get to live in it with no urging feeling of escape. May the road to heal your traumas be light enough to let you carry their memories wi...

Dig into yourself once and for all.. then relax. "And to be truly happy, you have to be actively involved in the direction of your life." 1.          Live the next months in places where your body feels like it belongs, with hearts that feel light and warm. 2.          Do not spend money on things that do not make you happy, only for the purpose of passing time. 3.          You do have potential, get to know it, test it and show it. 4.          Take good care of yourself, self-love is where it all begins my friend.   5.          Rest when you feel like it; start listening to your body. 6.          Breathe 7.          Love your parents 8.          Do not talk shit about people, do not talk about people even, talk about life and moments filled with goosebumps. 9.     ...

For the past seven months, I had taken the decision to resolve untouched baggage in my life that has been cluttering with a rhythm-less kind of order, a vain distribution of chaos that has no sense of obvious beauty or an understanding for its various forms, I decided to crash the door in the back of each lobe in my brain and let the skeletons dance, you see, there are moments that come in your life where some triggers get you to feel things you do not know the source of, they either get you overwhelmed with sadness or utter beauty, and you always wander around life searching for that feeling again or a justification for it, these skeletons tremble over a certain unrecognized feeling and have your body shake with unease, but once and for all, I am entering. My decision did not come out of curiosity or free-time, it rushed into my organs with a flood of anxiety and unjustified heartbeats, with suffocation and an emerging need to take my virtual clothes-off in order to feel free and brea...

Adulthood is the sudden emerge of consciousness, where it starts to invade every inch of logic and reality you had built your past years upon, it fluids into the gaps of each childhood memory you can recall, until the ones trapped in the back start pushing their weight ahead demanding for answers. It is the time where you start realizing the effect of actions and unjustified bad company that have been feeding trash food to your inner subconscious and melting your mental health away with criticism and cynicism. It is the time you choose your life-path based on weighed decisions and sudden moments of ‘you know what, fuck it’ impulsiveness out of ballsiness and capped frustration, it’s where you create your mindset and lifestyle upon trial and error, actual likes and dislikes, what your body can actually handle, and not based on societal pleasures, parents’ unfulfilled wishes or academic pressures.  It is where you get to relive your childhood imagination through touching the infi...

For the past period, I had been feeling dissatisfied with life with a general meh mood and “okay sure whatever” behavior. Until I realized that I have been acting out on my own life because I have been looking for highs all the time, in my relationships, friendships, work, self, you name it..  The kind of highs that push you to wanting more highs with a demand of instant pleasure, and since you cannot get that in your daily life, and the pressure of having one is all around social media pushing the good life down your throat, you tune your mind into needing it in order to be happy, which is honestly purely unrealistic.  Until I discovered that what matters the most is the simplicity of having an ordinary day and being satisfied with it, having a cup of tea and actually tasting it without being rushed into the next big thing or another exotic tea that you have not tried but SERIOUSLY HAVE TO because you can not simply live without trying, these kind of scam trends pushing need...

                                  Do you ever hear of a writer's block, but you're more concerned with the block on your chest, preventing you from breathing. Do you ever have the urge to express yourself, but you’ve reached the dead-end of a lingual road. Do you ever feel like performing an autopsy on all of the past conversations, in hopes of figuring out the source of your abandoned question marks? Do you ever have the urge to grab a drilling machine, remove the damaged clotted paths in your heart, and pave new roads. Do you ever feel like grabbing a pair of scissors, and opening the cage of your vocal cords, freeing all stuck words into air. Do you ever feel like expressing yourself, but your writer’s block is .. dominating with all control.

My dilemma currently is in the word; Invest. It’s quite known that, when a thought of a new project comes to mind, you'll make a proper plan in order to use your time, money, and energy wisely, you'll prepare for each set-back and possible failures that might come along the way, the losses don't matter as long as you have a plan B as a detour. You imagine all the possible outcomes and create a strategy plan in order to succeed with your actions. We all invest without knowing. It doesn’t always involve a precisely planned agenda with an escape. We invest in love, people and ourselves without being fully aware; reaching an end-point where we’ve used up all our chemicals and we are left with nothing but a burn.  See, when you look up the word "invest", it says; devote (one's time, effort, or energy) to a particular undertaking with the expectation of a worthwhile result. You’re awaiting a worthwhile result that will guarantee your satisfaction and one that would ...