Opium to the soul;

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Midnight realizations after a best-friend/tea car-talk;


Two of the most influential words I have been getting acquainted with are; perception and awareness. I bet you that it is an every day read for you, either on your news-feed or somewhere along the lines of an advertisement, but have you ever actually admired these words without labeling them too soon as cliché.

Your perception of a reality differs each day, depending on your emotional state or whatever condition you are in, it is truly fascinating to me how the story remains the same, with all its plots and characters, but each time your mind thinks of it, it sees something different, your mind creates a different truth for the same situation. It just is .. brilliant.


It is opium to the soul, getting enriched by life, through making opportunities happen each chance you get to, the satisfaction of it is addictive, and you just, want, more. A state of mind of getting in touch with yourself and getting to know your desires and points of satisfaction, don't you find it amazing? How we get to know ourselves more and more over the years, “we get to know ourselves", how weird is that. 

And yet people expect you not to change or differ in any way all through your relationship, it is not, physically/mentally, possible, people. These discoveries all over the years make us who we are, and they give us the experience we pursue to become our own awesome gurus. It just amazes me, that's all, the effect of awareness and perception on our lives; integrating from our past into our so-very own unpredictable future.

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